Monday, April 9, 2012

Where am I??

My emotions have run amok since the 10-Miler.  I'm happy that I ran it.  I'm not particularly happy with my time.  I'm frustrated that I had some bronchial issues that kept me from running the race I wanted to run.  I'm glad that running has become part of my life.  Wondering if racing is my thing.  Wondering if I'll be disappointed in myself if I don't put another race on the schedule.  Hoping that I can get my fanny in gear, get back into some strength training and be the best ME I can be.  



Okay, you get the idea, right?  It has been a tumultuous time.  What I DON'T need right now is to spend a lot of time putting all this junk out there for the world to see.  Soooo ... I'm going to take a break from blogging.  Maybe not from the blogosphere in general, as I really do enjoy reading other runners' blogs, but perhaps a break from that would be helpful, too, since some of my self-criticism comes from comparing myself to others, something I promised myself I wouldn't do.  So if I don't log on and see how fast everyone else is, I can't compare, right?

Anyway, I wish all of you runners much happiness and satisfaction in your running until I decide to plug back in to check on you!  Thanks for all of the support during my training and after the race.  While I've had lots of support, thanks especially to all the Jennifers who have been with me, as well as Sara, Erica, and of course, GrazMan (who supports me every day--if I were half the woman he thinks I am, I'd be pretty amazing!).

Happy running! 

7 comments:

  1. :' -(

    Will miss you, Turtle. Your kind words of encouragement have meant a lot to me! We all have to step back and reevaluate from time to time, though, I guess...and I certainly don't fault you from trying to find the best balance for yourself.

    I think you are much better than you think. You are an athlete whether you run races or not. It is about improving in our own ways, whether that means bettering our paces, increasing our distances, or simply (but importantly) ensuring that we are consistent with healthy living and treating our bodies with love and working out regularly. We are not in competition with each other; rather with our own selves.

    I wish you the very best :)

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    1. You are so sweet, Jen! Wish we lived in the same town--while you'd have to slow down for me, I would enjoy running with you!

      Hugs!!!

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    2. Uhhh, YOU are faster than me...so you'd have to slow down for me :)

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  2. P.S. Those emotions that you describe are ones that I believe EVERY runner has...so you are not alone!!! Some people call them the post-race blues.

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    1. Didn't know there was such a thing, but it makes sense, particularly when one race has become so important. Maybe that's all the more reason--assuming I enter another race--NOT to let it take over the rest of my life.

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  3. Do what is best for you but as a woman and a runner, we all get into those times when we compare ourselves to others and are too hard on ourselves. You are awesome! Love yourself and I hope you come back to blogging!

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    1. Thanks so much, Erica! Your blog is one I often visit (and yes, I wish I were as fast as you!!). Your thoughtful replies to my blogs have been most appreciated, and most likely I will resume blogging. As you can tell, I cannot completely cut myself off yet. My husband would tell you that I am by far my own worst critic/enemy. Self-doubt seems to be my favorite past-time, but I'm trying--really!--to get through this and come out the other side stronger and more confident. You have helped, so thanks again!

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